Music is NOT yelling.

Here’s a question for you. Would you rather go bury yourself in your make-believe life where you  believe Keisha is a music artist than face the truth that main stream music is corrupt?

If you’re sitting behind your computer screen thinking Keisha has come out with decent songs that everyone can jam to…then please don’t read this. Do us both a favor and go away? If you don’t have a care in the world, but have plenty of beer…then you just should drink up and stay out of society while you’re at it?

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Okay, onto bigger and better topics. And to get things straight: This is my blog, not yours. You choose to read this, and you can choose not to too? Kapeesh?

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Thoughts on a New Viking Stadium?

Ahhhh let’s be positive now. We’re not all idiots? Clearly we’re not all like the parent who let their child lick the windows at my work today? True story.

I do believe there are a few smart remaining humans who understand that paying taxes for a Vikings stadium is utterly ridiculous. haha OH Yes, I DID just say that in my opinion a new stadium being justified for our tax money is  comparable to the window licking child’s parent. Or, no?  That’s TOTALLY absurd right??

Correction: It’s on the same level as the window licking child himself.

Have I offended you? No? Really? Ok, ok…GO ahead and tell me how great it will boost our economy and how this awesome stadium will provide jobs and revenue to our state. That’s the difference between you and me  see. I know that you’re a die-hard Viking fan that doesn’t give a shit about the revenue the stadium will bring, and it’s the only solid argument you have.  And please, quit googling your arguments.

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Ok, I’m sorry (I’m not sorry). Let’s find a topic we ALL can agree upon? Let’s just make this blog a little more reader-friendly to all those who have taken their time to browse through my every day thoughts (Thanks! I do mean that).

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This is the topic. Are you ready? I hope you can relate to this. This issue has bothered me, and I know it’s a topic I’ve heard others discuss.

Drivers who can’t Merge.

Ahhhhh yes, now we’re on the same page. Now you Vikings fans can cool off a little bit from me pissing you off. You’re probably good at it by now considering how pissed you must be every football Sunday.  I promise, that was the last stab at the Vikings. SKOL!!! Okay? Truce? ——-BACK TO MERGING. K for real though? Please please PLEASE if you’re merging onto the freeway you first need to get up to speed. Merging on going 40mph when the speed limit of the highway is 70 is SO not cool. Another thing, you either speed up or slow down. DONT match the speed of the car whose lane you’re trying to get into. It only results in middle fingers being pointed your way! (Sorry old lady today, I definitely was not waving to you).

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Die Hard Fan vs Poser

I’m not going to spend much on this thought of mine just because I don’t have too much to say.  BUT here’s the deal: Having an Apple product for the sake of doing what’s “cool” is different from being an Apple fan. I have an iphone because it’s cool and pretty. Yes, even I have enough pride to admit such a thing. I don’t know a damn thing what this dang thing can do.  I can access my Twitter though. That’s good enough. Follow me @RandeeKaye

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Let’s just throw some more weird topics of conversation out there. It’s my blog, I say it’s legit. -And at this point I’m not really even following any type of order.

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Hipsters.

Yes, you with your pants rolled up past your ankles playing your acoustic guitar. I really don’t even know what to say to you? I don’t know whether to hate or love you. At this point in time it’s to be determined. Keep on doing what you’re doing so I can evaluate you some more.

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Their are so many topics I can bring up that bug the shit out of me, interest me, confuse me. They’re comes a time when I just need to stop and be nice. To many people don’t say what they want to say, but everyone has there opinions. Right? If you didn’t cringe reading these past few sentences like I did just typing them, then you are the main subject to my final and last topic. Enough said.

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Thanks for reading!

As I get older I realize all the same drama I may have dealt with in highschool even occurs in my adult life. Safe to say our whole life is highschool. You will still see girls competing with one another. In highschool it might have been being the captain in sports, having the best clothes, the best relationships,  etc. But now I see girls competing with getting engaged first, having the best ring, best wedding, house, who has kids first, best careers, etc etc etc. It’s easy to get caught up in the thought that I need to prove myself to all these people who truly don’t matter to me. So, here’s  to stepping outside of the box and living life the way I want, and not how others want me to live it.

I will do things at my own pace. I’m in NO rush to go out and find Mr. Right and get married, have a house, and start having babies. I’m not saying everyone who’s married right now didn’t WANT to have that life, but I can tell who’s trying to compete, and those who are genuinely doing it for themselves. Just because I’m in my 20′s does NOT mean I have to conform to the “norm” and rush into a life I dont want right now. If you don’t understand, that’s okay too. I’ll be happier than those who do things because they feel they need to.

I’m 23 going on 24 and I’m still unsure of what I want. And I decided I can take all the time I want to figure out who I am and what kind of a future I desire. I admire those who chase their dreams when others tell them it’s impossible and foolish. What’s foolish is settling for a life because it’s safe and secure. Go out on a limb and see what else is out there. You might actually learn to know what it’s like to “live”. Just a thought.

The more confident you become, the more you learn who you are, the more you stand up for what you feel is right, the more you don’t give a damn, the MORE people will try to knock you down. Don’t get mad, just understand they are just jealous they never had the guts to do what you’re doing. It’s the sad ugly truth.

I’m going to keep living life, making mistakes, achieving accomplishments, and always making sure I’m doing things for myself and not to impress the general population. If you take the time to judge me then maybe you need to focus more of your time on yourself. But if my life matters to you so much, even if it’s negative, then thank you for taking the time to care either way.

If you took the time to read this you might think that I sound stuck up, or that I’m bitter, or maybe that you agree with a lot of what I’m saying. To me, it doesn’t matter either way. This is how I feel, this is who I am, and this is me being real. And to be real, takes courage.

May 1st has come and gone, and with that the Anniversary of my first year living down here. How did it go? Great, I guess. Or in better words, FAST. I really hope the next year doesn’t go by THAT fast or I’m afraid the next time I blink I’ll be an old lady (I over exaggerate a lot).

In the past year I started a new job, started a new life, found a career, made new friends, moved again, and am currently working 3 jobs (2 part-time jobs just for fun). I find my time hanging at home reading books, watching movies, eating popcorn for dinner, and doing whatever I want!

I’m proud of many of my friends this year in addition to myself.  First off, my best friend Julie Birman is engaged and soon to be married June 4th. I’m so excited for her, and am thankful she asked me to be her bridesmaid. My best friend (I have a lot of best-friends) Laura who is expecting  baby boy Jacob this Summer and I know will be a fantastic mother. My best friend Erin who is graduating from College and starting her internship this Summer in the cities. My best friend/cousin Lauren who has learned a lot about herself and gets stronger everyday as a person. My best friend Jena who is starting a new life in the Air Force and who is ALWAYS there for me. Heather- Who made an awesome dance team and has been around since I’ve moved. Alyssa-For becoming a great friend as well as my own photographer!  Last, but certainly not least, my Best guy friends who started their band Lake Avenue (Joe Dunbar, Cory Bordson, Mike Moe, Jason Crammer) and have been tearing the state of MN up with their extreme talent ever since. All in all, I’m proud to have such amazing people in my life. Thank You.

I don’t have anything that’s too interesting to write. My life is simple, awesome, and full of great people. And really, that’s all it’s about.

-Miranda

I had no idea earlier on today why I felt so down.  I was sitting at home by myself and it just hit me that  for the first time in my life I FELT homesick. I finally understood this “feeling” that I only once heard about.Some days are harder than others (like today).  All I want to do is hop in my car and drive the 2 hours home.

Homesickness was always something I heard about and never was able to relate to.  I never had to worry about making a “trip” to see my friends or my Mom and Dad. I took for granted being able to sit and have coffee with  my mom, be able to give my dad a huge hug when he got home from work, go out to lunch with my best girlfriends.  All the things I could do on any given day are now gone. Instead, I’m left having to plan a trip a month or 2 months in advance just to see my parents faces.  I have to use my phone or the computer to stay in touch w/ everyone I used to see any day of the week. It’s not easy to adjust to, and I don’t know if I ever truly will.

On the other hand, there is some level of  truth that if I  stayed in Duluth I wouldn’t be motivated like I am now. Duluth is like a huge blanket that makes me feel safe, happy, and content. Of course this isn’t a BAD thing, but it diminishes my level of motivation. I want to see how far I can go in life, and make and achieve new goals.

I wouldn’t change anything about my life right now. Moving down to Bloomington was and still is the best decision I have made. I have met new people, started a new job, found a new level of motivation, and living a new life.

So this is to my Mom, my Dad, my Best friends, my HOME : I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’d like to start this post for all my Haters out there who couldn’t handle my Modeling photos. Take that you bastards.

and now to start my actual blog….

Things have been confusing, misleading, and on the contrary pretty exciting. This life of doing things for yourself and not worrying about consequences keeps things interesting for sure. I don’t know how much longer I can keep it up since at some point I have to buckle down and do something. Whatever ‘something’ may be (since i have no clue). Can you blame a girl for wanting some fun first? Maybe, but I don’t care.

I’m still loving the cities. I know some people doubted I would. I know people were expecting me to turn around and run my butt back to Duluth. HA! little did they know…I have been a city girl all along. Duluth was cramping my style. It’s a great place to VISIT though. . If only I could convince all my friends from home to move down here…..that would be amazing.

I’m applying for some HUC/Station Coordinator jobs. And really, I hope i get one soon. Outback has been good to me for 4 years, but knowing exactly how much ill make in a week, and wearing scrubs to work sounds bomb. So keep your fingers crossed and lets hope I can get my big girl job!!!

I know some people have been curious and I constantly get the “Any boyfriend yet?”. To answer this…. No, no, and no. Give a girl a break. As far as I’m concerned I might just be single forever. I have learned that most guys around my age (young 20′s) are not ready to settle for 1 girl yet. Ha, and you know? I’m not ready to settle either. So, that’s that. I’m riding Solo for now. ….So quit asking?

All I know is that I’m a good person and I’m going to keep going with that. I will make something of myself soon (mark my words), but for now…..

….. I’m gonna focus on doing me.

This very HOT Summer is now coming to an end and now it’s time for me to be one year older (23) and start looking for a Job as a HUC (Health Unit Coordinator). 

Speaking of turning 23—–Where did the time go? I feel like it was just yesterday I was turning 21 and so excited I could legally drink in a bar/restaurant.  Hopefully the years slow down a little, otherwise I’m afraid I’m going to blink and I’ll be 43. Okay, I don’t want to think about that. I’m going to continue to just live one day at a time and hope they don’t fly by tooooo fast.

So a little Overview of the past 3 Months:

First off Lauren and Amy are awesome. It’s one thing to have sweet roomies, and another to become great friends. Granted Lauren’s my cousin, but it’s been fun to actually make a friendship with her. I don’t think I’ve watched so many TV shows in my life. I was scared I would never catch up with them, but now I’m just as bad as they are and can’t wait to watch The Bachelorette, Pretty little liars, etc. ( thank God for DVR).

My Job couldn’t be better. I love the management, people, and customers (who tip very well). The environment is so friendly and easy going. So in that category I lucked out!! Working 6 nights a week gets old, but I’m grateful none-the-less.

I signed up with an agency to start some Modeling. I’ve paired up with a Photographer (Alyssa Rei Photography) and am starting a portfolio. I wish I could say more, but it’s a competitive field and not something I know much about yet. I’m doing it for fun, and with that being said…Whatever happens happens. If nothing, then oh well.

For now I’m still having fun being alone and getting to understand myself and what I want in life. I’m not stressing about relationships or any of that crap.  Although I feel old turning 23, I’m still quite young.  I’m having the time of my life and love every minute of it!!

-That’s all for now!

First thing though, let me get this straight.  I really have no good reason to stress (because on the contrary, my life is pretty good), but I am and I will tell you why.

I haven’t been single since I was a 16 year old girl.  And being single as a young teenager vs. single as a young adult-I’m here to tell you-are like night and day. I feel like I’m out of practice or something. Where do I start? What do I do? How should I act? It’ awful.  Also, it’s freekin’ lonely. Loneliness though, can be good. It gives you time to think about what you want–What you really, really, REALLY want. I sit and ask myself: Why are you lonely?  Ok, I’m surrounded by friends and family everyday, but what is it that gives me this ache in my chest? I look over at the right side of my bed every morning and wish someone was there.  I turn on my favorite movie and wish I had someone to laugh with. I see two people kiss in the street and I get  jealous. So yes, there are a lot of things I miss in terms of being with someone.  But I have had time now to think of my life and what  I want. So I’m learning that part of being single isn’t always about finding another relationship as much as it is to find yourself.  The loneliness is something you learn to live with.

As crazy as this sounds, this time to think of what I want has me even more stressed.

What the hell do I want?  I could tell you a million things I’d want in a relationship, but fall short when I think of myself only. Is this because I don’t feel complete being alone? I need someone there to love me to make me feel right? Well, bullshit I say.  I need to get that out of my head. I DO NOT need a man to make me happy, independent, or feel “complete”.  Yes, who doesn’t love having someone there to count on,  confide in,  make a life with?  But, what kind of person can’t be happy with themselves, and only themselves.  So figuring all this out has me a little stressed.

What do I do now? I mean, I know what I need to do. How should I go about doing it?

I need to take life one day at a time and quit WORRYING. One characteristic I HATE about being a female is the worrying. Constant worrying.  If only I could just shut my brain off.  But it’s in my nature, and I have to deal with it.  I need to stay positive when I get scared.  I need to find the things that make ME happy and make me who I am as an individual.

I’m a couple short months away from moving, and although that’s another huge stress, it’s also going to give me a lot of the answers I need.  I’m certain that I will find myself and finally live the life I want. If someone comes along to sweep me off my feet, then that will be fine too. And if that doesn’t happen, I’ll learn to be okay with that too. (I hope). 

I’m sorry if you read this entire Blog and felt like you wasted a few short minutes of your life. I wouldn’t blame you.  My problems/stresses may seem unimportant or not very serious, but they are what I deal with everyday of my life.  If I learned patience I might not have many of the stresses I carry.  I should just let the future play out as it should, and quit hoping I will I find the answers NOW.

 but I say : “Patience. What the Frick is that?!”

Anyhow, thanks for reading.

-Miranda

 Life has been one hell of a ride.  I thought I would never experience being alone again,  and i’ve proved myself wrong.   For that, I’m thankful. I have to say I still don’t know if I have come to terms with being a single lady.   I know I can be independent now and do things on my own free will,  but going out and meeting random guys or trying dating hasn’t happened.  I’m a firm believer, and always have been, that when I date a boy it’s because there’s a possibility in a future.  The thought of dating for recreational purposes is almost  taboo to me.  For that very reason,  I’m just not in a place to look for someone right now.  I’m loving every minute of being “me” and getting to know myself.  I do not have a time limit on how long I plan or want to be single.  Someday, I hope, I’ll  find someone who I share natural chemistry with and it will  be easy to develop a relationship.  I have hope there will be someone someday who will feel lucky to have me as a girlfriend/fiance/wife.  If that never happens, I will learn to be happy with myself. In the  end I will always have me.

Struggles-

It’s been hard to break up with the only boyfriend I’ve ever had,  move back home, start back at square 1 , and plan a new life.  Some days are obviously harder than others, but I live for the days I feel on top of the world.  My friends and family have been there all along, and for them I’m SOOOO happy. I have the most wonderful people in my life. I feel lucky. As I should. 

Moving Forward-

I’m excited to move down to Minneapolis and start this new exciting chapter in my life.  It will be hard to leave home and my friends here,  but I have a great bunch of family and friends who will be down there with me too. 

In the end my life is very bittersweet.